13 Reasons Summer is NOT my time of year

1.  I find the sun is too damn bright.

It burns us

2.  I get sunburned easily

I was born to darkness

3.  Heat + Hot Flashes = MISERY

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4.  Never enough ice

Don't care how I want it now

5.  Kids are home aaaaaalll day

6.  And they make dishes

7.  And they don’t wash them

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8.  It’s busy at work

9.  For some reason all my deadlines seem to fall in the three months of summer

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10.  Allergies

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11.  Even if I liked sunny days (which I really don’t) I’m stuck in the office

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12.  Everyone thinks I’m crazy because I don’t love summer.

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13.  Did I mention the hot flashes?

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A funeral today…

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My father-in-law’s funeral is today.  He was an awesome man who saw the best in everyone.  I’m going to miss him terribly.

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I’m baaack Mother Fucker!!!!!

Did you miss me?

So……

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On the marriage front:  The Redneck and I are doing well.  We’ve had some interesting shit go down which included getting fired by our Marriage counselor, weird signs and portents that would take forever to explain and a busy ass summer.

On the writing front:  I’ve been mired in a struggle with a book called Master Charming which was supposed to be light and frothy.  I’m not sure if I pull it off, but it’s going to Loose-Id at the end of the month to see if they want to take it.

Other projects have been tough to get through due to my fucked up circumstances.

I’ve gotten a tattoo, gone full on back into Al-Anon meetings, made some changes that I hope will make a difference, and discovered that I don’t hate my job.

Now, I have returned in all my fucked up glory.  I don’t know what this blog will look like.  I know that I did some writing over on FetLife that was a good outlet for me.  Like journaling.

Meanwhile, it’s good to be back.  It may take a while to get started, but we’ll get it going.

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“Mastered 2″ is out TODAY!!!

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Welcome to another edition of BDSM awesomeness!!!!!  Some of the best authors in the business have teamed up again to offer some fantastic stories of Domination, submission and kink.

BUY IT HERE!!!

Didn’t catch the first installment about Tasha, Noah and Ty?

“Bondage on 34th Street” is available as a single title HERE!

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AREBLAST

All Romance is celebrating Tax Day with 15% off of participating publisher titles.  All my books at EC, Loose-Id and my self published title is at a discount!

Go check it out!!!

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An Update….

Since many of you have probably read my general announcement regarding my marriage.  At the time, I truly believed that there was no way the relationship could survive.  I had tried when he told me about the affair to keep him from leaving the marriage, willing to work on our issues, but he said he couldn’t stay.

The Redneck was gone for three months.  In that time, I worked my Al-Anon program harder than I ever have in my life.  I prayed for the knowledge of my Higher Power’s will for me, believing that whatever the outcome, I would be okay.  I survived.  I breathed.

I took care of myself and stepped into the light.

I forgave him.  I forgave her.  I accepted that this was how it was and I was going to be okay in it.  I found peace.  Long stretches of peace.  I took care of things that had been neglected and loved my kids through it.

Little did I know that the affair was a period of insanity and obsession that the Redneck would eventually find nightmarish and horrific.  I had no idea, being as deceived about the woman he left me for as he was, that she would become the death knell to his sanity.

And I had no idea that in the midst of his misery, he would come to me because I was the only person he could talk to.  Not to complain or to get sympathy, but out of a desperate need to voice his crazy.  I wasn’t exactly receptive.  LOL!

I did, however, recognize a human being in pain.  I listened, but gave no advice.  When he expressed that he regretted his actions, I was surprised.  When he finally was on the brink of true insanity, I suggested he get out of the situation, not for my own sake, but because I began to worry about him.  I really thought I was going to be taking him to the local mental health ward.

That’s how bad it got.

The result of all this is that he is going to A.A., stepping away from the darkness and says he wants to remain married.

I am…cautiously optimistic.

I still love him.  How that is possible, I don’t know.  But I do.  I will see how it turns out.

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Good Goes The Bye by Kelly Clarkson

Sorry I haven’t been here much.  I love this song!

They say Rome wasn’t built in a day
But you and I went and built it anyway
And it only took a second to watch it all fall to dust
I thought you hung up the moon
And you thought I lit up the room
But the lights turned off and it was the end of us

[Chorus]
Slam goes the door
Hush goes the phone
Out goes the flame
And I’m standing here alone
Burn goes the drink
Down go the tears
Drip goes the sink
And I’m missing you like hell
Break goes the heart
Wrong goes the right
Good goes the bye

It’s like we pulled the pin out of a grenade
It just didn’t go off right away
But man did it go off when it finally did
Everything’s suddenly magnified
It’s loud and it’s quiet at the same time
As the echo of it’s all over sets in

[Chorus]
Slam goes the door
Hush goes the phone
Out goes the flame
And I’m standing here alone
Burn goes the drink
Down go the tears
Drip goes the sink
And I’m missing you like hell
Break goes the heart
Wrong goes the right
Good goes the bye

I can’t go back, we can’t be friends
And we can’t be what we were then
You can’t be mine, and I can’t be yours
And it’s not love anymore

[Chorus]
Slam goes the door
Hush goes the phone
Out goes the flame
And I’m standing here alone
Burn goes the drink
Down go the tears
Drip goes the sink
And I’m missing you like hell
Break goes the heart
Wrong goes the right

Goodbye….

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