What do you do when what you write WELL isn’t what you thought you’d want to write? And what do you do when face the fact that you’ve possibly been spinning your wheels? Well, I’m faced with that possibility.
There are two realities I’ve had to face. One, my romantic suspense at Whiskey Creek Press has not sold very well. Two, my erotic BDSM and sci fi has sold very well. And it’s not looking like agents and editors are very interested in my romantic suspense either. Some of my toughest edits have been on my sensual Jennifer McKenzie stuff and I get the same criticism over and over. “Too distant”, “I don’t connect with the characters”, “Pacing is off”. Add the fact that my books are really more action adventure than romantic suspense and you’ve got a recipe for rejection.
Two of my critique partners have encouraged me to send the erotic writing to New York. For some reason, I have resisted this move. Maybe it’s because my mom would shake her head and pray for me. Maybe it’s because having an erotic book selling at the bookstore in my area would be…intimidating. Maybe it’s because I really want to be Ngaio Marsh or Dorothy L. Sayers. The truth is, I don’t know why I’ve resisted it. I struggle with the suspense-the pacing, the loose ends, the deep point of view that really gets you inside the head of the characters-and I don’t struggle with the erotic romance as much. The characters tend to talk to me more.
The point is that I’ve been walking a rough road for a while and now, I’m considering switching directions. Or at least changing cars. Same road, but instead of a Honda Civic, I’m going to switch to a Corvette. A red one. With leather seats. LOL.
I guess my point is that I’m angsting. What that means for future projects is…I don’t know. I just can’t get my brain around this. It will be interesting to see which direction this takes me.