If you’re going to conference, look away. There’s nothing to see here. Just a very professional confident writer who isn’t talking about the upcoming RWA conference at all.
Are they gone?
Now, I’ll tell the truth. I am terrified. Scared. Fearful. You get the picture. For three years, I’ve been getting to know people online. Other authors and Divas (from Romance Divas) have “known” me online as amusing, lively, even diiiiiirty.
But they’re going to see the REAL me. The frumpy housewife mixed with the unpleasant smell of desperation.
Okay, it’s not THAT bad, but it VERY intimidating. What if they don’t like me in person? What if I say something really stupid or offensive? What if I get drunk, climb up on a table and start dancing naked? I know. You’re right. They’d take pictures.
And then there’s the professional angle. Everybody tells me not to worry. They tell me my whole career doesn’t hinge on the contacts I make here no matter how I may feel. Yeah right. I am definitely feeling the pressure. Not because I wanna be famous or anything but I don’t want to miss an opportunity and be a loser.
And I do drink. I just can’t drink too much.
So, I’m a little crazy with the pressure but I WILL make it. I want to be the ones who can say “I made it”.
I know I’ll have an awesome time. I’m just a little scared. Okay. I’m a LOT scared. LOL.
*pours a shot* Here’s to making it!!!!! And here’s to having courage through the fear.